Come on, I need a bump up!!

It's been a long time, me no blogging , it's just too many things going on these days...Well maybe it's just an usual thing for me. I am always busy.  I don't get too much of my time to relax, but eventho there is a day for me to relax, I ended up will have or find something do to. Hum..am I contradict with myself here? I always want to have time to relax, but I always ended up can't be relaxed at the end?!! Well, but I have figured out that, busy to me, is doing something that I don't really enjoy or want to do, but I have to take my time to do it.  Those are what I called my busy time. >< So, what I really wanna do while I am not busy then? I would like to meet friends, watch a good movie, have a good dinner, staying home play my guitar, sing some praise songs, go online. haha well, basically anything but work or church work.  haha..but then at the end of every night, I pray to God...and those are my most honest time to myself and to God.  It's also a relaxing time for me too, but sometime just hard to focus, why? Sometimes people just can't be too honest to yourself for too long, especially when you confess of your sins, it hurts, Ouch, just don't wanna think about it. But on the other hand, I can't say it not good to be honest too, because I get to release myself to God. Ya, that's why I am glad that I know God, He knows everything of me. Well..He is God , what am I talk about??! Anyhow, pray is a great place where I could have my own time, finally, but I just think I will need more time to do it. Gotta be more focus and I think , I have been talking too much, I need sometime to be hold and listen.  I am also a lazy Christian too maybe?! But when you are long time Christian, it's cools down, well, just the interest in reading God's word and knowing God has lost a bit.  So, I know I gotta need a bump up spiritually, or a new excitement in the relationship with God.  Haha sound like a long time relationship , you get bored, and you need to come to a new stage.  Yes, that's what I need.  Oh gotta pray to God to help me, gotta be ready for it.   hum...I sound like I am exaggerating my feeling too much tonight...well, once in a blue moon maybe ...hoho~~ Shall look forward for some change insideeeeeeeeee!! Bring it on!!!