Friday, October 31, 2008

Halloween 08

今天是Halloween,也是我在這公司的第二年Halloween。公司在每年Halloween的下午都會有一個Halloween Party,為的是選出裝扮得最出色的員工給他獎勵,所以每個部門都會有同事為Halloween作出凖備。其實從上年的Haloween我都不太想扮什麼,因為知道作為一個基督徒是不應該為Halloween慶祝的,因為對基督徒來說慶祝Halloween也是一種敬拜,而我們只應該敬拜唯一的真神,所以我每次都沒有凖備打算去扮什麼。但是每次回到公司總會給上司落力幫助打扮一番!雖然真的不應該,但見到大家都很用心為我裝扮又很開心,心裡面都覺得其實可以令大家開心,扮一扮也無防,不過我一定會提醒自己和身邊不是基督徒的同事知道,我知所以裝扮,並不是要跟其他人一樣要為撒旦慶祝!我只是為了不掃大家的慶而已!對一些不信神的人來說,我可能對慶祝Halloween的意思說得太嚴重,他們只也是為了玩玩而已,但對基督徒來說其實很容易給人一個不好的見證,也會令人覺得我們是與撒旦是同一顆的。那真的要很小心不要讓人誤會,讓人覺得我們的信仰是搖擺不定,又敬拜神,又敬拜撒旦的。
雖然我最終也扮了,而且也和大家玩得很開心,但當我回想到我的裝扮,其實真的有點恐佈。我記得在這個Halloween的日子都會有很多教會,為了讓小朋友能夠不須一同慶祝鬼王節的同時也能有一個開心的晚上,都會預備了一整晚的節目給了孩們來到教會參加。在晚會上除了有攤位遊戲之外也會給小孩門有機會裝扮一番,只是不會扮與撒旦有關的裝扮,也要讓他們知道鬼王節不是一定要慶祝鬼(撒旦)的。所以也讓我想到,為什麼教會會有這樣一個安排?究竟在教會對鬼王節的介定是什麼呢?是可以裝扮,但只要不要扮和撒旦有關的裝扮便行了?這是當我回想對我今天在掙扎扮與不扮和扮什麼的時候想到的。但在最後我給了自己一個藉口,就是既然教會都讓小朋友裝扮,那其實裝扮是可以的,只要不扮和撒旦有關的裝扮便行了。Well, 雖然可能對某些基督徒來說(其實我也覺得)是絕對不可扮什麼讓人誤會基督徒的信仰的,但當與到給自己有藉口的時候便很難去決擇!所以我希望下一年(如果沒被公司抄,還在公司工作的話),不須裝扮就好了,不用想那麼多,很煩呢!><

唉!這遍 blog 真的不能太張陽,不過也不能隱瞞,卻見證了我的 struggle 和軟弱 。唉.......@_@

Anyways, 都樣大家看看我們的鬼馬的裝扮啦!!!我和同事們晚上還去了玩煙花,這煙花玩樂也是很搞笑和刺激呢!!!









Tuesday, October 28, 2008

兩天的拍攝,一天的意外!

剛剛過完的 weekend 全奉獻給公司拍華姐 promo,而我今次被安排作兩天拍攝的 PA。記得上一次和另一位導演拍攝已是一個半月前的事了。今次拍攝也令我想到上年的華姐拍攝,上次是我第一次參預華姐的拍攝,與衆華姐的相處很開心,所以我都很 look forward to 新一屆的華姐好不好玩。但因今天要拍的都是一些 cool 的樣子,所以她們沒有笑太多,而我也不敢與她們玩太多,被免破壞了"個 mood"。 第一天的拍攝總算順利,華姐們都很合作,而且導演是我師父,所以都不會有太大問題。=)Around 7pm 就完了拍攝,還可以去史賓沙同事的 Farewell 呢!

因一天的工作太累玩到大概12點便回家!

到了第二天,我經歷了三綜意外。第一件意外是我因作天太累,竟然睡過了上班的時間,可憐的我還答應了上司要載她一同回公司。但我卻發覺為什麼我遲了那麼多,卻沒有一人打電話給我的呢?所以我一扎醒便立刻打電話到我麗同事那理,先問他們在公司的情況,跟著就打給我要載回公司的上司。我問她們為什麼沒有打給我的呢?但她們兩個分別都說因知我昨天工作了一整天又去了 Farewell 便讓我睡多點。她們對我真好,但她們這樣說更令我覺得不好意思,所以我便不惜一切盡快到公司。誰不知我們在去公司的途中與到第二件意外,就是與到一綜車禍,雖然那綜車禍只是一綜小車禍,但我們覺得是應該停下來作他們的 Witness,所以我便停下來給了卡片給被撞的司機。盡一下市民的責任吧!哈哈!

而第三件意外就在 lunch 之前,當我們拍攝到 lunch time 的時間,聽到一件更驚赫的事!我們從一位同事身上聽到有人在公司的商場跳樓自殺!因當時已是 lunch time 的關係,所以我們都帶著戰驚的心出去看看。我們從公司的三樓看到那個男子還在急救當中,不過知道他大概已經給了急救十分鐘或以上,所以真的可能沒有救了,但就在步行到餐室的時候,麗同事突然提出叫我為那男子祈禱!那事我有一點諤然,因她不是基督教徒,但她卻想到要為那男子祈禱,為什麼身為基督徒的我沒想到呀?我當時有一點反醒之後我便立即祈禱。當時我們都是在步行到餐室的所以不能閉上眼祈禱,所以我是開著眼祈的。但我身邊的麗同事,見我為什麼不是在祈禱的樣子,便不停地問我祈了禱沒有,很緊張的呢!我說我祈了,她還是不太信我,哈哈!真的很搞笑!不過這事也讓我知道,當遇到沒辦法的時候人都是需要神的,而當有事情發生的時候,就是基督徒要抓緊機會作見證的最好時候了!

需然大家當日都帶著一點點沈重的心情工作,但當日所拍的都是開心的 mood,所以大家在拍攝其間都很頭入令華姐開心同笑。最後整個拍攝順利在大概七點鐘完結,還可以凖時到 sha bu sha bu 與中學同學吃晚飯呢!^^

Friday, October 24, 2008

Why writing a blog??

Here I start to write my blog again???!!! Yes, I had been saying I don't like blogs, why would I need to post my personal stuffs on the web to tell everyone what I have been done and what are my thoughts about other things? And I don't like to read blogs too, because it feels like reading somebody's diary, it doesn't feel right.   The reason I don't like to read and write blogs is because I am too protective? Because I don't want people to know about me and I don't want to know about others because I don't want to know too much of my friends so I would put myself into high chance to find out somebody's secret or lies that I shouldn't know? I don't know!!  I don't know why they created blogs like an open diary for everyone to read.  I wonder why people reading someone's diary would consider bad in the past but now it's  a good thing to share!! Well, you may say people are not really putting up the real thing on web, but  I do have some chance to read other blogs too, and there are more put up their real thoughts than lies.  All my friends had created their own blogs, and somehow I admitted that I know them more from their blogs than in our sharing time.  That's weird, I start wondering will people ONLY communicate on internet in the our near future? If so, it will be the most pitiful thing in the world.  However, to start a blog for me just like ICQ, MSN, Friendster and Facebook, it's all because of peer pressure.  When everyone is using it, talk about it and invite you many times, you just don't want to be excluded, you just will start using them because you don't want people said you are outdated..haha, sometimes even I don't have one, I still need to learn about it in order to get in the circle. haha!! 

Tonight I suddenly thought of take a look at my Friendster page....Yes "Friendster" which I think nobody would ever use Friendster anymore since Facebook comes in.  I haven't login that page for a very long time!! When I was checking any news on my page, I somehow clicked on a page called "my blog" Oh! I do have a blog before?? Man I almost forgot, I do have a blog long time ago. There!!  It's a blog I shared all my theatre portfolios there. It recalls me of why would I create that blog, it's to show and share my theatre experiences, I wish people can share about my happiness on working on what I like to do.  It reminds me of why I create a blog is to "SHARE".  Well,  I always said to myself that I shouldn't have anything to hide in front of others, but why would I hide my happiness to others? It makes me to think of my identity as a Christian in the world.  Christian shouldn't hide under the table, they are the light and the salt for the world, they are here in the world to share happiness!! I thanks God for this reminder, and I thank God to open my mind and my heart to take this first step again to try to open up myself.  I don't mean now it's alright to put every detail on the web, we still need to be careful on the web, but if we use blog as a tool to share happiness I am sure it will be a good thing to use.  Now I totally changed my bias about blog.   Here I have already share my thoughts, now it's your turn.  =)